The Dinosaur Moment

I am feeling horribly depressed today. I wish I had more control over how I felt from time to time. It's sunny (a little warm), I didn't have any immediate difficulties at work, things are great at home--pretty much the same as yesterday, and yesterday was grand.

I think it's the overall uncertainty at work, combined with recent macroeconomic problems, that makes me fear for the future. David talked today about a "dinosaur moment," which is that feeling of doom headed right for you--much like the way the dinosaurs must have felt when they looked up and saw that big, dark spot in the sky.

And we're buying a boat, which is a good but very scary thing. Part of me believes that it will lead to my death, my bankruptcy, or both. I always feel that way before a big purchase--even though this purchase is on the scale of, say, a nice two-week vacation or a cruise to Alaska. After I buy it and it starts gently rusting on my driveway, I suppose I'll feel better about things.

Alright, I won't write any more today since I'm just wallowing. I'm going to relax on the ferry and enjoy this nice weather. Everything will work out.