There is No "I" in "Team"

I am feeling much, much better than I had been. Last week, I was at the PMA trade show after stressing out about content for my store for about a week and a half before hand. The early part of last week, I uploaded content for about 50 products, and stayed up late doing it. At that time, I made a critical mistake in putting content up on one page that falsely advertised some free products bundled in. I found out about this on the first day in Las Vegas, and because I was so far away, I couldn't do anything about it. It really tore me up. It was a big fire drill for people on the team and it was a huge embarassment for me. The mistake I made, too, was dependent on a build, so it couldn't get fixed until about 32 hours after it was caught.

To be honest, I was harder on myself than anyone else at the company, but it made me see my situation with new eyes. Before I left for Vegas, I came to the realization that I had to bring my life into better balance than it had been. This time, I think I'm starting to realize that I have a lot more value than what I currently sell to my company. During one of the dinners, I actually told two of the people that I work with than my next job will probably be working for my wife.

It's just that ever since I came to Seattle in 2000, I have been proving myself to the company. That was my way of putting down roots. I think it's good that I've done that, but I probably don't need to keep doing it so hard that it impacts my life so. I still like the idea of working there, but I'm much more open now to the idea of working with Wendy or for myself some day. I guess I will have to make a plan and move toward that.